People always ask me, "Why?!"
I have always wanted to reply, "Why not?" But of course, out of courtesy, I reply random answers such as "Because it's boring," "Because the EDSA traffic's killing me," "Because we're not meant to be," or whatever good reason pops out of my head.
On the other hand, a lot of people also get giddy, close to being “starstruck.” Coming from a country that is entertainment-centered (and personality-based) in almost everything, people react with their mouths opened wide upon knowing that I work for a media company. The silent air from a wide opened mouth is always followed by moronic questions I wish not to encounter again. (I call it a curse-- Working for a company that has Wowowee in its lunch variety show. But that’s another story.)
It has been one year since I had a 9AM-6PM job…since I last opened SAP and called myself an IT analyst. So much have changed since then.
My average wake-up time is no earlier than 9AM. And believe me, waking up without an alarm clock is complete zen!
Being no longer confined in a 50" X 50" cubicle is liberating. I don't need to kill time. I don't pretend that I'm working on something that is nothing. I no longer use my peripheral view (oooh the boss is coming!) while holding alt+tab with such speed. I no longer watch the clock every minute to wish that it's already 6 in the evening. I can watch, read and do anything I want, anytime of the day (unless there is work). And I no longer need to wear stiff corporate clothes and shoes that are sometimes fatal to my heels (But ok ok I’ll admit that sometimes, I also miss corporate clothes).
I can no longer differentiate weekdays from weekends and weekends from weekdays. And now I know what “time flies while you’re having fun” means!
I have more family time. No amount of money can beat that!
I learned how to spend only on the things I need (and once in awhile, on the things I want.) Compared to big splurges when I still had more earnings, I can now go to malls without spending on anything.
I now go to the gym. Kickboxing is love! Plus observing sweating oldies and ladies flirting with their therapists can sometimes be interesting (or not).
There is a feeling of fulfillment. I no longer ask myself, "Am I useful?," "Is this the only thing I'll do for the rest of the day?" There is a break in routine. It challenges me. My creative juices are working. And being able to hear words you've carefully knit on TV, tingles a bit of satisfaction in me.
From an introvert who doesn't like talking to an introvert who needs to talk because of my job, I guess my PR skills have improved (by 1% hahaha). And I have known a lot of people from all walks of life because of this. And now, I know a whole bunch of new things about sports!
I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I never made that bold step. Would I have been happy? I don't think so. So for those of you who are confronted with the agonies of robotic work or those who are torn between passion and money, pursue something you want at least once in your life. Of course there are situations that won’t permit you to pursue your wants. But in case you have the choice, take risks while you’re young. Take the leap of faith. At least at the end of the day, you know you gave it a shot.
I did and it’s all worth it =)